The gender I want to be is “Majestic Unicorn of unclear gender/sex, but decidedly statuesque in bearing”

You can see how it would be difficult for me to transition in any meaningful way

  • bitball@lemmy.world
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    6 months ago

    i would do anything for a soft fur coat and the re-contextualization of my social ineptitude as “dog can’t talk”

  • boogetyboo@aussie.zone
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    6 months ago

    I’ve wondered this as a ciswoman who is hetero and far as I’m aware, neuro typical.

    Growing up I had all kinds of identity questions and it’s taken me a long time to both understand who I am and what I want for myself; to make peace with a few things about my personality etc.

    I wonder if the struggles of trans/queer/ND people to find their identity delay those additional questions? Or are they layered on top as well?

    No real point, just a musing I’ve had. Being a human is hard even when you’re already ticking boxes that society says you should.

    • Laurentide@pawb.socialEnglish
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      6 months ago

      I spent 30 years thinking I was cishet (and suffering for it). When I finally realized that I’m trans, it was like a dam bursting; suddenly everything about my identity was in question. I’ve gone from “Maybe I’m a girl” to “I’m a trans demi ND plural therian” in three years and I don’t think I’m done discovering things about myself yet.

    • Count Regal Inkwell@pawb.socialOP
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      6 months ago

      To me, my gender/identity related realisations are all strongly tied to discovering what my personality was underneath all the trauma debris, idk.

    • KyuubiNoKitsune@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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      6 months ago

      I think it can flip it on its head, give you a different perspective and maybe sometimes give you even more solid answers.

      I know who I am mostly, have kind of come to terms with everything that isn’t leftovers from the trauma of my life, but I still don’t feel like what I want to be gender wise, my body just doesn’t want that for me.

    • Count Regal Inkwell@pawb.socialOP
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      6 months ago

      Seems to be more of a Masto community.

      Also holy shit, Reddit harrassed me to use the app (I’m on a computer, I literally can’t) until I used old.reddit – It got even worse in this past year that I haven’t touched it.

  • Theme@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    6 months ago

    What if I transition, and I’m still miserable? Because for all the affirmation, at the end of it I’ll remain, myself. And I fucking hate myself

  • LennethAegis@fedia.io
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    6 months ago

    This feels like a lovecraftian story. You gained forbidden knowledge but lost your humanity in exchange.

  • HubertManne@moist.catsweat.com
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    6 months ago

    Im definitely not. Im not sure I would to look different than my best self (young, perfect health, in great shape) but maybe a few genetic tweaks might not be bad (can’t tan, need glasses, etc). But like the only reason I would want to be like a dragon man would be for the super powers. If I could get superpowers and look like myself I would more likely take that. Honestly im not even sure I care what I am. Im pretty in my head so if I was like a ghost but could otherwise communicate and interact with everything I think I would be fine with it. Granted might miss food and sex but if the urges/cravings were not present im not so sure I would.

  • JadenSmith@sh.itjust.works
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    6 months ago

    They say you should listen to my inner child, and when I was a very young child I wanted to be a caterpillar. So far I’m accomplishing this by doing fuck all but eat and sleep.
    Maybe I’m less like Franz Kafka than I thought, however I believe I should give it a little more time (just in case metamorphosis is around the corner).