I am bad. Not terrible, but, I deserve all the bad things happening me because I’m not a good person. Now I think there’s worse things than being a bad person in this world but that doesn’t change the fact that I’m bad.
I am bad. Not terrible, but, I deserve all the bad things happening me because I’m not a good person. Now I think there’s worse things than being a bad person in this world but that doesn’t change the fact that I’m bad.
I don’t necessarily think I’m a bad person and I have meet very few people who I think are "bad persons” even if people can act very badly in the moment.
And for you, I think it’s kinda bad for your mental health going around thinking your a bad person and that you therefore deserve that bad things happen to you. But of course it may very well not be a problem for you so you do you. Being able to realise that your not perfect and maybe even flawed in some sense can also be a good trait for someone to have. Too self confident people can be really annoying
When I get pretty low, I hear the same things in my head as OP. I have journal entries that are strikingly similar to what OP wrote.
It’s a bit uncanny, I have never come across another person that feels, at least it seems, the way I do. I know it’s irrational to feel this way. I bet OP knows it too, deep down. But I can’t escape the feeling, and clearly they cannot either.