I completely stopped caring about 2 years ago, I realized I was never going to do anything with my good look and that I will never get into a relationship in my life, so I just figured out “what’s the point then, I’m already invisible to women?” And I don’t care about my health tbh…
Since I don’t have kids or my own family I could just disappear and nothing would happen. No, I’m not thinking about extreme stuff to end my life, I just stopped caring and now eat a lot and drink.
If I’m going to be alone and feeling sad, at least let me eat something good and greasy. Still, I’m just 100 KG at 34 years old right now, just skinny fat… For now.
Have you spoken to a doctor about the trouble you’re having? I spent a large chunk of my adult life thinking I just sucked at running and aerobic exercise in general until I found out I had exercise induced asthma. Turns out you’re not supposed to feel like you’re sucking air through a straw while exercising! A couple of puffs on an inhaler beforehand and now I at least feel like I can breathe while doing cardio.