True Neutral

Try not to think like this. Over the last 10 years, between reddit in the past, and here now, I’ve had to use these places as my only external form of human social contact because of disability issues. I’ve noticed certain patterns emerge with the seasons. These places are largely dominated by certain regions of the world. When those regions go through seasons where the majority of people are doing things elsewhere, the comment and interaction quality decline noticeably. I’ve learned to not take it personally and I turn to other outlets to spend more of my time. This is when I do most of my gaming and reading. I’ve finished all of the primary Dune series and most of Asimov’s main series from Robots through Galactic and Foundation. Most recently, someone suggested the FOSS game Cataclysm Darker Days Ahead. While the theme is absolutely counterproductive for me, the game’s complexity and particularly the documentation of the source code and mods is absolutely fascinating to me. I’ve been exploring JSON tools when it comes to stuff with AI, and the game is like a guided masters class in functional use and tools that use JSON.

Many people seem to think I’m an asshole or a “bad person” but most simply can’t understand my needs and interests. I never knew what disability was really like and its challenges prior to the day I got hit by a car. I probably had a stupid attitude and said stupid things that made people feel bad in my exact position now. I can’t blame others for their ignorance when condemning them is condemning myself.

Personalities and functional thought are far more varied in humans than most of us realize in practice. I’ve explored this a whole lot over the last year with AI where it can simulate other contrasting perspectives in very complex ways while answering some really complex questions with relevant sources to back them up. This kind of personality analysis is a major aspect of what LLM’s are designed to understand. The more I’ve explored this topic, the more I have come to realize the binary approach to anything like a good and bad label for a human is completely inadequate. The cause and effect have no simple connections. Most of a person’s “bad” behavior is likely related to cognitive dissonance. If you look up what that really means, it is due to some level of conflict in a person’s life that they are unable to address or have limited/emerging self awareness. If you are noticing such behavior that could be related to cognitive dissonance, work to address the probable causes of underlying conflict in your life if you’d like to address the issue.

My personal primary conflict is social isolation. That is what I am here to address. I don’t use corporate social media because I’m an outlier of their marketing and exploitation designs where they are unable to accommodate my needs. The inconsistencies of this place are not healthy for me, and it can have a very real impact on my life, but over time I’ve tried to pick up on the patterns and withdraw when I need to do so. Anything that shakes up or makes me question the underlying stability of a place like this is the most deeply disturbing to me. I’m also aware that there is a substantial misdirection campaign that happens with all major elections now. Anyone posting or commenting on such subjects are highly suspect to me. I look at their account activities and ignore or block them if they do not show a wide spectrum of activity and complexity. One day it will become public knowledge that conservative asshats have no morality whatsoever, never have, and are paying thousands of people to post, comment, and write bots to maintain their criminal activities and control. Their presence is completely disproportionate to the population and interests the government represents. When those subhuman jackasses could no longer enslave people outright, they simply shift their focus to redefine slavery to put everyone in their chains. Anyone commenting some shitty nonsense with an account that has little history or a lot of history with no depth is some unethical criminal being paid to do so, is not worth my time or thought, and is absolutely the reason I was right in the first place. Look up the Plutonic definition of sophism and keep in mind that there are some people with a love for their own sadism. These places online are full of people that can be fucked with and there are many that love to take advantage of those that are here for their real human needs. Do not hesitate to disregard anyone that evokes a negative emotion to a well intended comment.

It depends. I’m rather selfish with my time, but that’s about it. I’m the kind of person that believes everyone should be treated equally, especially considering each person’s situation. Everyone deserves a fair shot, and everyone deserves compassion and understanding.

I think it depends on what exactly everyone else define as a “bad” or “good” person. As I don’t like to see life as black and white I don’t define myself as someone “bad” or “good”.

I’m probably a worse person than I let on. People like me more than they should. It could just be mild depression and poor self esteem talking though, the lying bastards.

Bad to whom?

What happened to the previous post? If you felt like you had to remove it, why did you just post it again?

Anyway, yes I am. It’s not like I could give a single reason why, it’s a lot of things, so simply yes.

Why was this (original) post deleted?

Mate, I think you’re missing the point - whether you “deserve” bad things or not is completely irrelevant - bad things happen to good people all the time, the universe does not care.

The only thing you can do is try to be better; but not on other people’s judgement just yours - you are the only person who has to live with your conscience.

You may go to jail if you’re doing illegal shit tho…

All of us contain the capacity for great good as well as great evil.

Further, while good and evil are important concepts, they are still essentially made up human ideas that will go extinct when we do.

So, what’s the utility of labeling yourself a “bad person”?

Everyone, everyone is imperfect, it’s the nature of being human. And we’re all imperfect in our own way, though we may share categories or degree of imperfection with others.

What’s more useful is to acknowledge when a poor choice is made, and striving to make better choices.

Negative self-talk doesn’t help.

No, not bad. Likely difficult on occasion. I’ve identified things that I’m bad at and therefore try not to involve myself in them, when possible.

Maybe watch the tv show ‘the Good Place’ and learn something from it

Nah, I’m an okay person. Sure I do bad things. I make mistakes and have problematic behaviour patterns from time to time. But I am working on it. That’s what makes a “good” or “bad” person. It’s almost never about what you do but mostly about intent and willingness to learn